joe021093

This must be seen as kind of strange, since I haven't updated my dA in a long time, but well. I guess I have to say I'm opening commission now!



More information and rules available on my tumblr: aozoradoesart.tumblr.com/post/…

Also heads-up, I'll probably try to be posting some stuff in dA again, but most likely it'll be on my other account Aozora210. There's nothing there but old stuffs for now, but you can try to head there and see.

That is all. Thank you very much! Wish you a great day!

It's been ages and really a while since I'm posting anything here, and it's because I don't feel like posting anything to this place anymore for a number of reasons. 

I'm still posting art, though in a frequency much less than before, and you can check them at my art blog:

aozoradoesart.tumblr.com/

In the future, I'll also post stuffs to my instagram, Aozora210 

And if you have twitter and is interested with my daily ramblings and such, you are free to follow me at my twitter, twitter.com/LaurantNyamo

See you at those places!

Looking back on the past month (April), I think there are too many things that I kept forgetting.

I forget people's birthday, I forget to host a stream, I forget to draw, I forget to reply to RPs, and doing entries of TGOCT.

I didn't think those forgetfulness will really means anything, but looking at them right now, it really hurts somehow. It feels like I've been missing a lot of things that I should've done or see. They've been a habit that's always causing a certain pain, but I've lived with it. 

On some aspects, I wonder if it's actually me that don't really pay attention to things like that, especially birthdays. Since some certain event, birthday becomes a sad thing for me that I don't pay too much to it, despite seeing one's birthday, I'd always wanted to give them something, no matter how late.

And there's TGOCT. To be honest there's a regret that I didn't finish my entries on time, but my opponent's has done a great job it drove them away and I really am happy if she won the round. I still decided that I will finish the rest, but I'm kind of doubtful somehow. Feeling relieved, the drive is slowly gone, and afterall, there's a feeling that I do not wish to change the end that has been written by my opponent with new view given by my entry. It's stuck at stash for a while, and I'm confused somehow. 

There's just too much many confusing things right now.

Since seeing 'more from joe021093' displays many of my old work (which is real crap), I decided to remove them from the main gallery into the scraps.

Seeing them somehow makes me remember a lot of things from way back, to the time when I'm still very active in dA, submitting any drawing I have (despite of how crappy they are), and communicating with a lot of people. I wonder where my confidence has gone and what has become to the people I talk to back then.

Some of them have become inactive and leave dA, some of them are still hanging around and posting stuffs.

I don't have the heart to delete them, since they keep some nice memories (though the others just make me feel embarrassed), and they'll be a reminder that I have gotten better, though still a long way to go.

I can't believe I've been a deviant for 7 years. I've heard about dA since 2006, joined it in 2007 and up to now, I'm still doing this, though with many regressions. 

I don't know what the future may bring. These days I draw less, but I guess that is not an excuse. I always hope I can draw, and post stuffs, but... well, let's just see, shall we?

Dear, CANVAS RANGER Secret Santa...
Setahun ini aku berusaha jadi anak yang baik, Aku ingin kado, tapi aku tau aku adalah bagian dari Canvas Ranger, yang tandanya aku mungkin mendapatkan hadiah dari musuhku.

Tapi tetap kabulkanlah permintaanku, yaitu :

 ...jika aku mendapat dari OC musuh cewe. Aku ingin OCku sedang tea party elegan bersama OC santa di atas helipad dengan angin kencang dan pemandangan Jakarta yang indah.
 ...jika aku mendapat dari OC musuh cowo. Aku ingin OCku sedang menangkap OC santa berbuat anu (terserah "anu" ini apa ) di perpustakaan yang ukuran bukunya bervariasi dan berwarna-warni.

Dan tidak lupa juga aku tetap berdoa supaya CR tetap gaje hingga tahun2 ke depan  Amin!